I Quit! Leap of Faith Time...

I quit my job. What an odd thing to say. And an even odder thing to do! Especially when I've barely started making money with the show after 3 1/2 years of an uphill climb. But do you ever hear a voice and get a gut feeling that you just can't explain but KNOW in the core of your being you have to listen to. I have before and I've reasoned myself out of it and let's just say it never ended well when I ignored that voice. So when I got the nudge a few months ago I pushed it away. "THAT MAKES NO SENSE" the logical part of myself screamed. And then my body literally started shutting down when I would go to work. My old ankle injury would resurface, my pinched back nerve would come back, and then the doozy of them all, I coughed until I almost passed out and went completely hoarse...and they wouldn't let me leave...THAT'S IT. My body is refusing to even LET me work anymore.

I eventually left that restaurant shift and took the next few days to reevaluate before finally giving in and listening to that voice. The weirdest part of it all is that I was about to travel for three weeks, so putting in a two-week notice at the restaurant meant just never going back. I tried to do what I do when I know a relationship needs to end; ease myself out of it and bargain with that "voice". "I'll just cut back..." "I'll find a backup first"..." maybe just one more month"...until it hit me, this is what I do! This was one more abusive relationship that needed to end immediately. And when I prayed I heard God say "just quit, trust me, and I'll show you what's next."

So here we go! I'm not sure what this new life looks like or even how to make money in this travel industry yet but I know this is the right step for me. I'm a hustler and a freelancer so I'm not TOO worried because I know how to scrape up some random jobs in the meantime but I'm pumped to be taking this leap of faith. Through all of the ups and downs, this travel host life has brought me, I have never once thought of quitting. I know without a doubt I've found my calling and I trust without a doubt it will all work out in the end. I feel free, excited, nauseous, terrified, motivated, scared, and beyond determined. I figure that all of that means I must be doing something right. For the first time in my life, I'm betting on me.